It's yet another to examine the mounting evidence and conclude (and this from a purely layman's perspective) that the snarling, snotty witch of Wasilla is mentally ill.

Noam Scheiber of The New Republic traveled to Alaska and found, in a box of documents retained by one of Sarah's helpers in her campaign for Mayor of Wasilla, this very telling doodle.  Click here for a larger PDF version.

It's noteworthy that her name is not only WRIT LARGE, but that she used two different pens and outlined it in a manner that can only be described as juvenile and inescapably ego maniacal.  She's not merely making notes...she's fantasizing, right down to the "check here" box complete with check.  On such a page, one would not be surprised to find "TP+SH FOREVER!" surrounded by a curlicued heart.
On suspects that Palin is carrying a "Campaign Journal" around with her to document the experience and, if we could get a peek inside, would find page after page of practice signatures with varying degrees of flourish:  PRESIDENT Sarah Palin...Madam President Palin...President Palin!
If one takes a closer look (PDF), the document further reveals that Sarah intended to promote the fact that she was a taxpayer - always a good sign when one wants to be mayor, not avoiding one's taxes.  And so to self-possessed we may add shallow:  Vote for me!  I'm a taxpayer!

Taken alone, this little scrap of paper from long ago would not amount to much.  However, considered with the accompanying article by Scheiber which contains the perspective of those who found, mentored, groomed, worked with and subsequently suffered Sarah Palin's Machiavellian drive to power - those who arguably know her best - one cannot escape the depressing conclusion that this woman is dangerous.

Palin in High School:

Rodger Foreman, one of her English teachers, would allow students to appeal their exam grades if they felt they'd been scored harshly. Foreman recalls that Palin regularly availed herself of the appeals process. "She was kind of like that. She thought she was right."

Palin on town council:

In 1996, Palin was also asserting herself more and more. For example, she'd demand to know why Stein, the mayor, had "raised the budget." Stein and Carney tried to explain that he'd done nothing of the kind--that, when a city grows, businesses collect more in tax revenue, but that new residents also increase demand for public services. Palin wasn't appeased. She'd say things like, "'Oh, okay. Well, that's the way you think about it,'" Stein recalls. "I was thinking--these are things she should know better. Why is she asking me these stupid questions?"

Palin's run for Mayor:

...in a move practically out of Karl Rove's playbook, she dwelled on how Stein's wife used her maiden name, going so far as to demand a marriage certificate as proof of their nuptials.

Palin's attacks on her "enemies":

Upon winning, Palin moved quickly to punish her snooty tormentors. Days after she was elected, the city council became deadlocked over how to fill two seats--Palin's and another that had opened up when its occupant won higher office. Palin insisted on making her own appointments, a move of dubious legality sure to irritate Carney. When he objected, she simply cut off discussion. She later accused him of sabotaging her proposed candidates. As she explained to the Mat-Su Valley Frontiersman, the local paper: "'It was brilliant maneuvering I had to do to deal with the impasse.'" "And," the same article continued, "the look on Carney's face when she appointed Steve Stoll and Dianne Keller told her the strategy worked, she said."

Within a year, Palin had blown through her personal enemies list. She had demanded the resignation of Emmons, the librarian opposed to censorship (who successfully fought for her job), and Irl Stambaugh, the city's police chief. Among Stambaugh's crimes? Insufficient enthusiasm when Palin asked him to file a weekly report listing "at least two positive examples of work that was started, how we helped the public, how we saved the City money, how we helped the state, how we helped Uncle Sam," according to The Seattle Times.

Some perspective on what drives this brainless over-achiever:  A desire to extract revenge against those she sees as competent and qualified:

Carney had a wry sense of humor. He was fond of joking that he'd graduated from Wasilla High School in the "top 20 percent"--by which he meant he was valedictorian of his five-person class. Sometimes Palin was the only colleague who didn't get his jokes. "I don't think he had too much patience for her lack of understanding," says John Stein, then the town's mayor. In internal discussions, Carney would be relentlessly logical while Palin was vague and intuitive. "Nick had a way of being direct and to the point, something that Sarah was uncomfortable with," recalls Chase. Which is to say, when it came to garbage removal, what Palin seemed to have chafed against was less the substance of Carney's position than what she felt was his elitist, Ivy League bearing.
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Palin...may be the first conservative politician since Nixon to experience resentment so authentically. For her, it's not so much a political tool as a motivating principle. A trip through Palin's past reveals that almost every step of her career can be understood as a reaction to elitist condescension - much of it in her own mind.

There are so many things wrong with the idea of Sarah Palin being a heartbeat away from the presidency, it boggles the mind.  It goes so far around the bend that it comes back on itself like a dog chasing its tail.
Everything that is learned about Palin's rise to power from beauty pageant obscurity speaks to a craven and desperate willingness to do anything to achieve that which she sees as her deserved reward if not God's plan.  It is thus no surprise that she so eagerly takes to the campaign trail, spouting slanderous lies, distortions, smears, insults and the worst kind of hypocritical invective in pursuit of that goal even as, in so doing, her own lack of gravitas, vocabulary, comprehension, insight and competence is revealed for all to see.  She brushes it off and soldiers on, convinced that she is right, just like when she marched into her high school English teacher's classroom and demanded a better grade.  She damn well DESERVES it, no matter what "competent" people think.  She's right.  They're wrong.  They're disloyal, elite, myopic and not part of God's righteous plan.

What's becoming more and more obvious - or should be - is that Sarah Palin is ill.

From the Diagnostic and Statiscal Manual, the elements of Narcissistic Personality Disorder:

A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:

• has a grandiose sense of self-importance
• is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
• believes that he or she is "special" and unique
• requires excessive admiration
• has a sense of entitlement
• is interpersonally exploitative
• lacks empathy
• is often envious of others or believes others are envious of him or her
• shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes

Which of the foregoing DON'T apply?  Sarah Palin?  Toys in the attic.  Truly gone fishing.

yan ang sinabi ko sa sarili ko.. ewan ko ba pero ngayong araw na ito, lapitin ako ng mga kahinahinalang tao. Diba ang sama ko masyado akong mapanghinala pero sa panahong ito mabuti na yung maging alerto ako kaysa naman sa huli na ang pagsisisi..

ganito ang mga nangyare, 7:30 am umalis ako ng bahay papuntang opisina. paglabas ko pa lang ng gate ng bahay namin may nakasalubong na akong lalake pero iba ang porma. ewan ko sadyang paranoid talaga ako. feeling ko kasi parang may tinatago syang kung anumang bagay sa kamay nya eh kasi nakatago sa ilalim ng jacket yung kamay nya. sa isip-isip ko baka magnanakaw to ah na tumitingin tingin sa mga bahay na walang tao. basta nung nakita ko sya nag-pray agad ako.

yung sumunod naman, pauwi na ako nun galing ng makati. nakasakay na ako sa bus bandang las pinas na (zapote). may lalaking sumakay ng bus medyo kahina-hinala ang kilos kasi kinakausap ang sarili habang sumasakay ng bus. eh tapos mejo iba pa ang porma, parang holdapper. so ayun nga, ang luwag luwag ng bus at sa akin pa talaga tumabi. mataba ako at sakop ko na halos ang buong upuan ng two-seater seat (tama ba). ang hindi ko lang mawari eh bakit sa akin pa sya tumabi. sa isip isip ko baka holdapper to ah. pray nanaman ako agad at alerto lang. tumitingin tingin sa gilid ko at baka may inilalabas na syang kung anumang armas.. buti na lang at bumaba agad sya (sa rfc las pinas). nakahinga ako ng maluwag nun at talagang todo sakop na ang ginawa ko sa upuan para wala ng tumabi pa sa akin.

yung pang huling eksena dito na sa bahay. kakarating ko lang nun at nag-computer agad ako para gawin ang project ng kapatid ko. siguro after ilang minutes, mga 20-30 minutes na ata ang nakakalilipas ng dumating ako sa bahay, nagulat ako kasi may maingay sa labas ng bahay. sumilip ako sa bintana yun pala yung maingay na yun ay isang lalaki sa halos sumisigaw sa harap ng bahay namin. ndi ko maintindihan kung ano yung sinisigaw ng mama. para kasing lasing at "****ski" lang ang naiintindihan ko sa isinisigaw nya ("ski" yung last letters ng isinisigaw nung lalake). so kinabahan nanaman ako kasi halos 5 minuto nasa harap ng bahay namin yung lalaki. kinakalampag niya rin yung padlock ng gate (although ndi naman malakas). nag-pray nanaman ako at tinext ko kaagad ang nanay ko.

grabe!!! ndi ko ba talaga alam kung bakit ganito mga nangyare ngayon sa akin.. masyado ako mapanghinala o sadyang paranoid lang talaga ako?!

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Premetto di conoscere molto poco questo gruppo che ho scoperto ascoltando la radio.

Stavo ascoltando la traduzione del testo e mi ha colpito per la descrizione che fa della ricerca dell'uomo.

Questo è una parte del testo:

All day long I think of things but nothing seems to satisfy,
Think I'll lose my mind if I don't find something to pacify
Can you help me occupy my brain?
I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find,
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind...
I tell you to enjoy life, I wish I could but (it's/I'm) too late

Traduzione:

Tutto il giorno penso a cose, ma niente sembra soddisfarmi
Penso che perderò la testa se non trovo qualcosa che mi tranquillizzi
Puoi aiutarmi ad occupare il cervello?
Ho bisogno di qualcuno che mi mostri le cose che non riesco a
trovare nella vita,
Non riesco a vedere le cose che fanno la vera felicità, devo
essere cieco...
Ti dico di goderti la vita, io vorrei poterlo ma è troppo tardi.

Mi sembra che descriva molto bene il senso di insoddisfazione della vita che spinge l'uomo a ricercare qualcosa o meglio qualcuno.
Questo è lo slancio ideale che costituisce l'uomo, che fa cambiare le giornate.
Però l'uomo di fronte a questo può sempre scegliere e Ozzy sceglie, non c'è nessuno che lo costringe, sceglie di cedere di non resistere di fronte alla domanda "straziante" di felicità; si percepisce una solitudine nella canzone che è terribile; mi vien da dire che una domanda così o c'è qualcuno con cui sostenerla oppure si finisce a dire che è meglio "godersi la vita" negando la domanda, è però commuovente che lui dica che una volta che quella questione te la sei posta non puoi più voltargli le spalle: è vero ma in questa posizione cinica l' unica possibilità è la pazzia da qui il nome della canzone (Paranoid=paranoico).

Scrivo questo post perchè spero di tenere desta la domanda che Ozzy descrive perfettamente, con la certezza però che non è pazzia ma è la possibilità che domani io possa arrivare a capire qualcosa in più.

Ecco una delle più antiche registrazioni:

First I got about 1/4 mile into my run and had to come back home, bathroom, run again, stop at the lake bathroom, finally able to finish my sloggish run of 5.39 miles with an average pace of 10:26.  Bland, we are back to bland eating, Turkey sandwich for lunch, pretzels for snacks, maybe some mini carrots if I'm a good girl.  Fish for dinner and some nice plain frozen veggies, steamed, no seasoning.  Bland, no pigging out, no self pity for being violated by some hoodlum in my new safe neighborhood.

I slept a little better last night, it took a long time for me to fall asleep, probably because I left my lamp on, I was afraid to turn it off, big baby.  I did turn it off about 12:30 am and was able to go to sleep, but I wake myself up a lot, I'll start dreaming and wake myself up to make sure I don't hear someone in the house.  I'm afraid to work in my super duper office I fixed up with my new desk, I don't want someone to see me in there, I just don't know what to do, I can't be afraid to live in my own house....I'm probably just be a little paranoid or silly.  I may call some alarm companies and see how much it cost, I really cannot afford another monthly payment, but maybe I can cut back somewhere else, but where?

Vaslav was a Russian ballet dancer and choreographer of Polish descent. Vaslav Nijinsky was one of the most gifted male dancers in history, and he grew to be celebrated for his virtuosity and for the depth and intensity of his characterisations. Vaslav could perform en pointe, a rare skill among male dancers at the time (Albright, 2004) and his ability to perform seemingly gravity-defying leaps was also legendary. The choreographer Bronislava Nijinska was his sister.

Vaslav Nijinsky was born to a Polish dancer's family of Eleonora Bereda and Tomasz Niżyński. Vaslav Nijinsky was christened in Warsaw. In 1900 he joined the Imperial Ballet School, where he studied under Enrico Cecchetti, Nicholas Legat, and Pavel Gerdt. At 18 years old he was given a string of leads. In 1910, the company's Prima ballerina assoluta Mathilde Kschessinskaya selected Vaslav Nijinsky to dance in a revival of Marius Petipa's Le Talisman, during which Vaslav Nijinsky created a sensation in the role of the Wind God Vayou.

A turning point for Vaslav Nijinsky was his meeting Sergei Diaghilev, a member of the St. Petersburg elite and a wealthy patron of the arts, promoting Russian visual and musical art abroad, particularly in Paris. Vaslav Nijinsky and Sergei Diaghilev grew to become lovers, and Sergei Diaghilev, a controlling, dominant personality, became heavily involved in directing and managing Vaslav Nijinsky's career. In 1909 Sergei Diaghilev took his dance company Ballets Russes, company to Paris, with Vaslav Nijinsky and Anna Pavlova as the leads. The show was a great success and increased the reputations of both leads, as well as Sergei Diaghilev's, throughout the artistic circles of Europe. Sergei Diaghilev had created Les Ballets Russes in its wake of public response, and with choreographer Michel Fokine, made it one of the most well-known companies of that time.

Vaslav Nijinsky's talent showed in Michel Fokine's pieces such as “Le Pavillon d'Armide” (music by Nikolai Tcherepnin), “Cleopatra” (music by Anton Arensky and other Russian composers) and a divertissement “The Feast”. Vaslav's expressive execution of a pas de deux from the “Sleeping Beauty” (Tchaikovsky) was a tremendous success; in 1910 he performed in “Giselle”, and Michel Fokine’s ballets “Carnaval" and “Scheherazade” (based on the orchestral suite by Rimsky-Korsakov). partnership with Tamara Karsavina, also of the Mariinsky Theatre, was legendary.

Vaslav Nijinsky went back to the Mariinsky Theatre, but was dismissed for appearing on-stage during a performance as Albrecht in Giselle wearing tights without the modesty trunks obligatory for male dancers in the company. The Dowager Empress Marie Feodorovna complained that his appearance was obscene, and he was dismissed. It is probable that the scandal was arranged by Sergie Diaghilev in order that Vaslav Nijinsky could be free to appear with his company, in the west, where many of his projects now centered around him. Vaslav danced lead roles in Michel Fokine's new productions Le Spectre de la Rose (Weber), and Igor Stravinsky's Petrushka, in which his impersonation of a dancing but lifeless puppet was widely admired.

Vaslav Nijinsky took the creative reins and choreographed ballets, which slew boundaries and stirred controversy. Vaslav's ballets were L'après-midi d'un faune (The Afternoon of a Faun, based on Claude Debussy's Prélude à l'après-midi d'un faune) (1912), Jeux (1913), Till Eulenspiegel (1916) and Le Sacre du Printemps (The Rite of Spring, with music by Igor Stravinsky (1913). Vaslav Nijinsky created choreography that exceeded the limits of traditional ballet and propriety. For the first time, his audiences were experiencing the futuristic, new direction of modern dance. The radically angular movements expressed the heart of Igor Stravinsky's radically modern scores. Unfortunately, Vaslav Nijinski's new trends in dance caused a riotous reaction at the Théâtre de Champs-Elysées when it premiered in Paris. As the title character in L'après-midi d'un faune the final tableau (or scene), during which he mimed masturbation with the scarf of a nymph, caused a scandal; he was accused by half of Paris of obscenity, but defended by such artists as Rodin, Odilon Redon and Proust.

Vaslav Nijinsky was never filmed while performing. When it was suggested to Sergie Diaghilev to record Vaslav Nijinsky's performances on films for later generations, he declined, saying that the later generations would find a way to take care of themselves.

Sergie Diaghilev did not make this fateful journey, because he was told by a fortune teller in his younger days, that he would die on the ocean if he ever sailed. Without his mentor's supervision, Vaslav Nijinsky entered into a relationship with Romola Pulszky, a Hungarian countess. An ardent fan of Vaslav Nijinsky, she took up ballet and used her family connections to get close to him. Despite her efforts to attract him, Vaslav Nijinsky appeared unconscious of her presence. Finally Romola booked passage on board a ship that Vaslav Nijinsky was due to travel on, and during the voyage Romola succeeded in engaging his affections.

Numerous speculations as to the true reason for their marriage have arisen, including the suggestion that Vaslav Nijinsky saw Romola's title and supposed wealth as a means to escape Sergie Diaghilev's repression.

Romola has often been vilified as the woman who forced Vaslav Nijinsky to abandon his artistry for cabaret fare, her pragmatic and plebeian ways often jarring with his sensitive nature. In his diary, Vaslav Nijinsky famously said of Romola "My wife is an untwinkling star ..." They were married in Buenos Aires: when the company returned to Europe. Sergie Diaghilev is reported to have flown into a jealous rage because he and Vaslav Nijinsky were supposed to be lovers, and he fired Vaslav Nijinsky. Vaslav Nijinsky tried in vain to create his own troupe, but a crucial London engagement failed due to administrative problems.

During World War I Vaslav Nijinsky was interned in Hungary. Sergie Diaghilev succeeded in getting Vaslav Nijinsky out for a North American tour in 1916. During this time, Vaslav Nijinski choreographed and danced the leading role in Till Eulenspiegel. Around this time in his life, signs of his dementia praecox were becoming apparent to members of the company. Vaslav Nijinsky grew afraid of other dancers and imagined that a trap door would be left open.

Vaslav Nijinsky had a nervous breakdown in 1919, and his career effectively ended. Vaslav Nijinsky was diagnosed with schizophrenia and taken to Switzerland by his wife, where he was treated unsuccessfully by psychiatrist Eugene Bleuler. Vaslav Nijinsky spent the rest of his life in and out of psychiatric hospitals and asylums.

Vaslav Nijinsky's daughter Kyra married the Ukrainian conductor Igor Markevich, and they had a son named Vaslav. The marriage ended in divorce.

Vaslav Nijinsky's Diary was written during the 6 weeks he spent in Switzerland before being committed to the asylum. Obscure and confused, it is obviously the work of a schizophrenic, but in many ways reflects a loving nature, combining elements of autobiography with appeals for compassion toward the less fortunate, and for vegetarianism and animal rights. Vaslav Nijinsky writes of the importance of feeling as opposed to reliance on reason and logic alone, and he denounces the practice of art criticism as being nothing more than a way for those who practice it to indulge their own egos rather than focusing on what the artist was trying to say. The diary also contains a bitter exposé of Vaslav Nijinsky's relationship with Sergie Diaghilev.

As a dancer Vaslav Nijinsky was clearly extraordinary for his time. Towards the end of her life his dance partner Tamara Karsavina suggested that any young dancer out of the Royal Ballet School could now perform the technical feats with which he astonished his contemporaries. Vaslav Nijinsky's main talent was probably not so much technical (Stanislas Idzikowski could leap as high and as far) as in mime and characterization; his major failing was that, being himself unable to form a satisfactory partnership with a woman, he was unsuccessful where such a relationship was important on-stage (in, say, Giselle). In epicene roles such as the god in Le Dieu Bleu, the rose in Spectre or the favourite slave in Scheherezade he was unsurpassed.

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Roky Erickson was interested in music from his youth: he played piano from the age of 5 and took up guitar at the age of 12. Roky Erickson attended school in Austin and dropped out of Travis High School in 1965, 1 month before graduating, rather than cut his hair to conform to the school dress code. Roky Erickson's 1st notable group was The Spades, who scored a regional hit with Roky Erickson's song "We Sell Soul"; this song is included on the compilation album Highs in the Mid 60s, Volume 17(although the songwriter is identified as Emil Schwartze on the track listing on this album).

Roky Erickson co-founded the 13th Floor Elevators in late 1965. Roky Erickson and bandmate Tommy Hall were the main songwriters. Early in her career, singer Janis Joplin considered joining the Elevators, but Family Dog's Chet Helms persuaded her to go to San Francisco, California, USA instead, where she found major fame.

In 1966 (Roky Erickson was 19 years old) the band released their debut album The Psychedelic Sounds of the 13th Floor Elevators. Psychedelic Sounds had the band's only charting single, Roky Erickson's "You're Gonna Miss Me." A stinging post-romantic breakup song, the single remains probably Roky Erickson's best-known work: it was a major hit on local charts in the U.S. southwest, and appeared at lower position on national singles charts as well. Critic Mark Deming writes that "If Roky Erickson had vanished from the face of the earth after The 13th Floor Elevators released their epochal debut single, 'You're Gonna Miss Me,' in early 1966, in all likelihood he'd still be regarded as a legend among garage rock fanatics for his primal vocal wailing and feral harmonica work."

In 1967, the band followed up with Easter Everywhere, perhaps the band's most focused effort, featuring the epic track "Slip Inside This House", and a noted cover of Bob Dylan's "It's All Over Now, Baby Blue."

After the band's 3rd album, Live, which featured audience applause dubbed over studio recordings of cover versions and older material, The 13th Floor Elevators released their 4th and final album Bull of the Woods in 1968. Due to Roky Erickson's health and legal problems, his contribution to the album is limited, with guitarist Stacy Sutherland taking more of a leading role.

In 1968, while doing a stint at Hemisfair, Roky Erickson started speaking nonsense. Roky Erickson was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and sent to a Houston psychiatric hospital, where he involuntarily received electroconvulsive therapy.

The Elevators were vocal proponents of mescaline (peyote), LSD, and marijuana use, and were subject to extra attention from police. In 1969, Roky Erickson was arrested for possession of 1 marijuana joint in Austin. Facing a 10 year prison term, Roky Erickson pled not guilty by reason of insanity. Roky Erickson was 1st sent to the Austin State Hospital. After several escapes, he was sent to the Rusk State Hospital for the Criminally Insane, where he was subjected to more electroconvulsive therapy and Thorazine treatments, ultimately remaining in custody until 1972.

When released from the state hospital, Roky Erickson's mental outlook had changed. In 1974, he formed a new band which he called Bleib Alien, Bleib being an anagram of Bible and/or German for Stay, and "Alien" being a pun on the German word "Allein" ("alone") - the phrase in German therefore being "Remain alone". Roky Erickson's new band exchanged the psychedelic sounds of The 13th Floor Elevators for a more heavy metal sound that featured lyrics on old horror film and science fiction themes. "2Headed Dog (Red Temple Prayer)" (produced by The Sir Douglas Quintet's Doug Sahm) was released as a single.

The new band renamed itself Roky Erickson and the Aliens. In 1979, Roky Erickson recorded 15 new songs with producer Stu Cook, former bass player of Creedence Clearwater Revival. These efforts were released in 2 "overlapping" LPs - TEO/CBS UK, and The Evil 1/415 records. Stu Cook also played bass on 2 tracks, "Sputnik" and "Bloody Hammer." Roky Erickson also performed with The Nervebreakers as his backup band at The Palladium in Dallas in 1979. A recording was issued on the French label New Rose and was recently re-issued elsewhere. In 1982, Roky Erickson asserted that a Martian had inhabited his body. Roky Erickson later reported to friends that aliens were coming to Earth to harm him, and asked a Notary Public to witness an official declaration that he was himself an alien, hoping that this would convince the aliens to leave him alone.

In an unmedicated state, Roky Erickson began a years-long obsession with the mail, often spending hours poring over random junk mail, writing to solicitors and celebrities (dead or living). Roky Erickson was arrested in 1989 on charges of mail theft. Roky Erickson picked up mail from neighbours who had moved and taped it to the walls of his room. Roky Erickson insisted that he never opened any of the mail, and the charges were ultimately dropped.

Several live albums of his older material have been released since then, and in 1990 Sire Records/Warner Bros. Records released a tribute album, Where The Pyramid Meets The Eye produced by WB executive Bill Bentley. It featured versions of Roky Erickson's songs performed by The Jesus and Mary Chain, R.E.M., ZZ Top, Julian Cope, Bongwater, John Wesley Harding, Doug Sahm and Primal Scream. According to the liner notes, the title of the album came from a remark Roky Erickson made to a friend who asked him to define psychedelic music, to which Roky Erickson reportedly replied "It's where the pyramid meets the eye, man!" (the quote is also a reference to the Eye of Providence).

In 1995, Roky Erickson released All That May Do My Rhyme on Butthole Surfers drummer King Coffey's label Trance Syndicate Records. Produced by Texas Tornado bassist Speedy Sparks, Austin recording legend Stuart Sullivan and Texas Music Office director Casey Monahan, the release coincided with the publication of Openers II, a complete collection of Roky Erickson's lyrics. Published by Henry Rollins's 2.13.61 Publications, it was compiled and edited by Casey Monahan with assistance from Henry Rollins and Roky Erickson's youngest brother Sumner Erickson, a classical tuba player.

Sumner Erickson was granted legal custody of Roky in 2001, and established a legal trust to aid his brother. As a result, Roky Erickson received some of the most effective medical and legal aid of his life, the latter useful in helping sort out the complicated tangle of contracts, which had reduced royalty payments to all but nothing for his recorded works. Roky Erickson also started taking medication to control his schizophrenia.

A documentary film on the life of Roky Erickson titled You're Gonna Miss Me was made by director Keven McAlester and screened at the 2005 SXSW film festival. In September of the same year, Roky Erickson performed his 1st full-length concert in 20years at the annual Austin City Limits Music Festival with The Explosives.

In the 30 December, 2005 issue of the Austin Chronicle, an alternative weekly newspaper in Austin, Texas, Margaret Moser brings up to date the story of Roky Erickson's recovery with the aid of his brother Sumner. According to the article, Roky Erickson weaned himself off his medication, played at 11 gigs in Austin that year, obtained a driver's license, owns a car (a Volvo), voted the previous year, and planned to do more concerts with The Explosives in 2006.

In 2007, Roky Erickson played his 1st ever gig in New York City, as well as California's Coachella Festival and made a stunning debut performance in England to a capacity audience at the Royal Festival Hall, London. Roky Erickson continued to play in Europe, performing for the 1st time in Finland at Ruisrock festival. According to the article in Helsingin Sanomat 8 June 2007, the performance was widely considered the highlight of the festival day.

According to an interview on Sound Opinions on Chicago Public Radio with You're Gonna Miss Me director Kevin McAlester (7/24/07), Roky Erickson is currently working on a new album with Billy Gibbons, singer and guitarist of ZZ Top, and a longtime admirer of Roky Erickson; Billy Gibbons' earlier band The Moving Sidewalks had a hit with "99th floor", which was a tribute of sorts to the Elevators.

On 8th September 2008, Scottish post-rock band Mogwai released the 'The Batcat EP'. Roky Erickson is featured on 1 of the tracks, 'Devil Rides'.

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Bob Mosley's career has been plagued by the challenges of schizophrenia, as was the case with Moby Grape bandmate Skip Spence. Both musicians were homeless for several years. Bob Mosley's schizophrenia was 1st diagnosed after he left Moby Grape in
1969,following the release of Moby Grape '69. Bob Mosley shocked the remaining band members, in leaving the band to join the Marines. It was during basic training with the Marines that Bob Mosley was 1st diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic. Bob Mosley was discharged from the Marines 9 months after basic training.

In 1996, 3 of Bob Mosley's fellow band members, Jerry Miller, Peter Lewis and Don Stevenson, in part reformed Moby Grape with the objective of helping Bob Mosley recover emotionally and financially. Bob Mosley describes the circumstances as follows: "In 1996, Peter Lewis picked me up along the side of a San Diego freeway where I was living, to tell me a ruling by San Francisco Judge Garcia gave Moby Grape their name back. I was ready to go to work again."

Unlike bandmate Skip Spence, whose musicial output largely ceased within a few years of the onset of schizophrenia, Bob Mosley has been able to continue to write songs and record music for much of his life. Bob Mosley's most recent solo release is True Blue, released on the Taxim label in 2005.

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I recently discovered that there is some sort of filtering happening with my blogs in at least two of the locations where I blog.

This was not a complete shock, but i am disgusted and horrified, if this is the sort of filtering that goes on in democratic countries, then should we really still be calling ourselves democratic?

The first location is a popular forum that also allows for bloggers to post. At the front of this Kick Ass forum, the blog postings are listed one after another. My posting use to appear at the front of this forum, however I now notice that the blog postings no longer appear on the front of this forum.
They are still accessible and when you do go to the forums you can access the blogs.

Everyone else who posts to this forum, has their blogs displayed at the front of this forum, but my postings no longer show up, they are being deliberately blocked and filtered out.
The other things that came to my attention is that on my word press blog, specific posts are not showing up, under the tags.

I wrote one post, where I posted Obama's speech called a call to service. I quoted what he said in the speech, made no commentary whatsoever, but I notice that the blog posting does not come up under the tags. At least it did not when I checked.

Case in point.

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2008/09/25/obama-a-call-to-service/

There is absolutely nothing controversial in this post, nothing negative was said, unless you count his plans for the American people and that you would have to judge for yourself, yet the post has been censored, meaning that when you click on the tag words, the post does not show up, but several of my other posts do, but this one is missing.

The other post that has been blocked is

The Real Fight.

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2008/09/29/the-real-fight/

Now this one could be considered controversial, but all I have done is reported the findings of others, and drawn my own conclusions. If the conclusions are wrong or incorrect, then surly this post could not be worthy of being filtered and blocked, but for some reason, when you click on the tags, as I write this, the post does not show up, but my newer post, Pole Shift does, when I click on the same tag.

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2008/09/29/the-real-fight/

Why am I blogging? The reason I am blogging in the first place of course, is because I have this crazy notion that I am being Gang Stalked 24/7, and having my private email monitored, along with my computer activity. The fact that I am being followed around 24/7, then I try to blog about it, and suddenly my posts are being filtered on two of the sites where I blog?

That's kind of messed up. If we are so free and democratic, then nothing I say here should make a difference, and if I am not telling the full truth, then it should just be some crazy rambling blog, that is not worthty of being filtered, but that's not the case.

I am also having some weird experiences with specific sites being blocked from my access, but I need more feedback on one specific incident before I blog about it.

I didn't ask to be Gang Stalked, I was going about my own life, minding my own business, the corrupted elements of this society, decided they were going to put me in my place and teach me a lesson, like they have so many other innocent people. Instead of doing something harsh or hostile, I have taken to blogging, a peaceable measure. However telling the truth for corrupted elements does not seem to be a peaceful thing to do. In every time period it would seem, that truth telling by corrupted elements, does not seem to go over very well.

Now I am open to suggestions, so if someone can provide some reason for my posts being blocked from the front of the really kick ass site where I sometimes post, or why some of my wordpress posts seem to be, appear to be getting filtered, I would love to hear it.

Again with the wordpress post, they will show up if you go to the site directly, and in some engines, but when you do a tag search directly from the post, it does not come up under any of the tags listed. Controversial or not, whichat least on of the postings was not, this is still a free society right?

2. I recently switched from coned to a cheaper supplier to save some cash. AHH didn't realize the rates on the electric part are variable, so now I'm having a minor heart attack.
oKAY, really- All I can do is call and cancel. Why make this nonsense stress me out?

I guess it's just a part of who I am. I really need to take a meditating class!! asap. I'm in big trouble. I need to inhale and exhale. I need to know there are bigger problems.

I mean I should know, because after all, I have bigger problems!

Tom Harrell began playing the trumpet at the age of 8. Tom Harrell soon moved to the San Francisco Bay Area, and was gigging with local bands by the age of 13. In 1969 he graduated from Stanford University with a music composition degree and joined Stan Kenton's orchestra, touring and recording with them throughout 1969. After leaving Stan Kenton's orchestra, Tom Harrell played with Woody Herman's big band (1970-1971), Azteca (1972), the Horace Silver Quintet (1973-1977), the Sam Jones big band, the Lee Konitz Nonet (1979-1981), George Russell, the Mel Lewis Orchestra (1981), and Charlie Haden's Liberation Orchestra. In addition, he recorded albums with Bill Evans, Dizzy Gillespie, Ronnie Cuber, Bob Brookmeyer, Lionel Hampton, Bob Berg, Bobby Shew, among others. From 1983-1989 he was a pivotal member of the Phil Woods Quintet, with whom he toured the world and made many recordings.

Since 1989 Tom Harrell has led his own groups; usually quintets but occasionally big bands. Tom Harrell has appeared at virtually every major jazz club and festival, and recorded under his own name for such record labels as Pinnacle, Blackhawk, Criss Cross, SteepleChase, Contemporary Records, Chesky, and RCA.

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OH MY GOD, COULD IT BE THE DRAIN CLEANER?????????? How had I got it on me? Where was it? What if it was in the house somewhere? Outside next to the chair where I sit to have my cigs? I lost the plot a bit. I turned the PC back on to look up if caustic soda caused white patches. It didn't mention that, but it did say that it can take upto 48 hours for the stuff to finish burning you. I ran my hand under the tap for ages. I dug the used MP3 battery out of the bin to see if it was leaking (it didn't seem to be). By this time I was hyperventilating and not thinking clearly at all. I had to take a valium, which I haven't done for months. The white patch disappeared after an hour or so, so I guess I must have spilled some peroxide when I was making up my mouthrinse, and somehow put my thumb in it later on when I went to the bathroom. I eventually got to sleep about 1.30AM. Well, not really sleep. More unconscious from a combination of 10mg of valium and total exhaustion.

I didn't sleep late though. I woke up about 8.30. By 9.30 I was up at the home brew shop to get some yeast food for my cider. Today I have vacuumed the house, blitzed the kitchen, thrown away a lot of crap, been grocery shopping, racked the cider and stuffed myself sick with chocolate biscuits. I managed to snooze for an hour this afternoon, but I am so jittery from a combination of anxiety and sugar that I can't settle down for the evening, even though I'm shattered. The inside of my mouth is raw from chewing on it. I cooked myself a veg curry for dinner, but I've eaten too much of it, and now I feel stuffed and sick. Yet I'm still thinking about what I could eat!

I've always had this tendency to compulsive eat when I'm alone and bored. It's not rocket science to work out why I do it. I feel empty and lonely, and eating makes me feel full and comforted. But at the same time I hate myself for it, because I already feel fat and I know if I carry on like this I'll put on loads more weight before M gets back, and hate myself even more. When I eat, I don't really taste or enjoy the food. I just stuff it down and then go looking for more. If I'm not eating, I'm smoking. I'm coughing a lot, so I know I'm smoking way too much.

Oh fuck. I really need to get a grip.

I'm so lonely and feel so crazy. I thought I was past all this, but I'm slipping back into my old ways, and finding it hard to cope.

Shit :(

Oh fuck. I feel very weird on that site. I haven't been on it. I'm scared to click on anything. I feel like I'm being trailed or something. Maybe I'm just delusional or something.  I hope I am. But I just can't shake the feeling. Even just thinking about it. YouThink.com. (*shivers*) I feel strange and unsafe.

I don't like that site very much. I feel unwanted. It feels unfriendly.

Oh, boo-hoo, right? Yeah I know. Okay....ENOUGH...I'm going to stop. Right. Now.

Ohkaayyy......there we go...all better....

Lionel Aldridge was drafted in 1963 by the New York Giants after a standout college career at Utah State. Active from 1963 to 1971, Lionel Aldridge played for the Packers during the Vince Lombardi dynasty in Green Bay, playing a role in Packer victories in Super Bowls I and II. Traded to the San Diego Chargers, Lionel Aldridge played 2 seasons in San Diego before retiring from professional football in 1972.

After retiring, Lionel Aldridge worked as sports analyst in Milwaukee until manifesting a mental illness called paranoid schizophrenia during the early 70s. Homeless for a time, he eventually reached a form of equilibrium, working as an advocate for the homeless and mentally ill until his death in 1998.

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Anyway, here are my results from the test:

So, what do you think?  I believe it.  I knew that Paranoid would come up high though.  :)  Hmm....Actually this reminds me of Girl, Interrupted.  GREAT MOVIE.  Plus, Wynona Ryder is diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder in that movie.  AND Angelina Jolie is in it.  Rent it if you haven't see it.  I believe Angelina won an Oscar for her role in that movie.

You can read about personality disorders
here. And I am not diagnosing myself as having PPD. It's a possibility...but I'll leave that up to my doctor. For now, I am going to stick with Bipolar II. That's enough drama for me.  ;)  Feel free to post your results or share this with a friend.

• Waving at 2 of our dogs who were waiting in the car and could see me through the window
• Checking out the really cool graphics some lady was copying next to me
• Experiencing a human version of hip dysplasia due to keeping one of my feet continuously touching my purse that was on the floor in front of the copier because some broad had been eyeing it

I also began staring at a giant CVS Pharmacy store across the street whose giant red signs, if read from right to left, say,

Beer, Wine, Pharmacy, Photo Service.

I couldn't help but think,

Shouldn't there be a warning about visiting that store from right to left? 

A warning against...

1. Imbibe beer
2. Imbibe wine
3. Down pharmaceuticals
4. Use camera and then develop photos

Not that I (or any of you, I'm sure) would know anything about being drunk, over medicated and ending up with the whole thing in the family photo album.

Just a thought.

Really. 

You might think being so bored at Kinko's would also lead me to think of what seems to be on everyone's mind

The Financial Crisis.

But I was not thinking of it other than the desire to say to somebody.  Anybody...

I have got to quit being a dumb ass by figuring out the magic amount of charitable contributions I can make to balance against my estimated tax payment and, thus, not have to pay as much in taxes.

Yes, the same amount of money will be going out the door.

But at least it won't be going to support a passle of raging codependents called

• Regulators
• Secretaries of...
• and Politicians

so pathetically unable to say no that they are going to force us all to strip down naked and take a lashing to do what they call

save our country

that's already, in my opinion, been put on a brink I would rather not even think about.

What I was actually thinking about is a fabulous woman I know who knows she has a giant ass and is always catching people staring at it and saying,

I know.  I know.  I've got too much junk in my trunk.

I'm not kidding when I tell you she can weigh 250 or 110 and she's still got a giant ass.

I met her mom once.

That's where she gets it.

She is also fond of telling the story of the time she was in a swimming pool, floating along slowly on her stomach and freaking out because she thought someone was following her in the water.

When it was only her own ass sticking up out of the water right behind her.

Is it stupid that I'm sitting here thinking I would love it if my friend with the giant ass was

Secretary of the United States Treasury?

That she's just the kind of person who would go on

• Cable Noise Network
• FoxNerds or
• MSNBCrap

and say,

Look at my giant ass!  One time I was in a swimming pool and...

because I think that would be about as useful as what the current Secretary of the United States Treasury currently has to say.

And more entertaining to boot!

I also could not stop talking with one of the women who works at Kinko's who has been a

straight up twat

every time I've been in there but today was wandering around saying things to customers along the lines of,

What are you going to let me help you with today?

Once I had determined she was not drunk or on crack I said,

C'mere.  C'mere Kinko's Lady.

She came right over and said,

What are you going to let me help you with today?

I said,

You can help me understand what's happened to you.

Kinko's Lady blushed.

I said,

See.  You know what I'm talking about.  What's up?  What's going on here?  Why so different?

She said,

I don't know what to say other than we've always supposed to have had someone out here wandering around helping but we didn't and when I insisted on it I found out I love it.  I get to talk to people all day.

Instead of reminding her what a twat she used to be I said,

Hey.  Look out there.  Those are my dogs.  Aren't they pretty?

Kinko's Lady said,

Awww.  They are!  My son just got a new puppy and...

I'm thinking Kinko's Lady would be a nice local Senator.

Can you imagine it?

How are you going to let me help you today?

In the meantime, I finished making my 400+ copies.

Yes, I was actually making two copies of all of my check registers from January 1, 1996 to December 31 2000.

One copy for my attorney and one for my accountant.

No.  You don't want to hear the whole story about why I would be standing around in Kinko's making copies of my check registers from 8 to 12 years ago.

You do however want to know that I remember putting a number on the front of each of those registers something like 6 years ago when I decided to reorganize some files. 

The entire time I kept thinking,

What the hell is wrong with me?  Jeezuh!  I'm so fuckin' anal.  So fuckin' paranoid.

And today I was thinking,

I'm so organized!  So fuckin' smart!

Because not even the bank has records that old and I really, really need them because sometimes we all end up dealing with a bunch of fuckin' yahoos who are actually hoping you are not as anal and paranoid as you really are.

Or as organized and smart.

Alas, I ended up finishing making 400+ copies and

• feeling organized and smart and
• saying good bye to our new local Senator and
• making a mental note to call our new Secretary of the United States and ask how her giant ass is doing when I got home

I think I will also follow through with that other mental note I made to some day find that 1988 photo I keep talking about where my eyes are going in opposite directions and it looks like 42 birds have been nesting in my hair because I was at the time in the habit of doing what CVS recommends...

• imbibe beer
• imbibe wine
• down pharmaceuticals
• taking photos
• have those photos developed

Again, I'm sure no one here can relate.

Radiohead

Composição: Thom Yorke

Please could you stop the noise, I'm trying to get some rest
From all the unborn chicken voices in my head
What's that...? (I may be paranoid, but not an android)
What's that...? (I may be paranoid, but not an android)

When I am king, you will be first against the wall
With your opinion which is of no consequence at all
What's that...? (I may be paranoid, but no android)
What's that...? (I may be paranoid, but no android)

Ambition makes you look pretty ugly
Kicking and squealing gucci little piggy
You don't remember
You don't remember
Why don't you remember my name?
Off with his head, man
Off with his head, man
Why don't you remember my name?
I guess he does....

Rain down, rain down
Come on rain down on me
From a great high
From a great high...high...
Rain down, rain down
Come on rain down on me
From a great high
From a great high... high...
Rain down, rain down
Come on rain down on me

That's it, sir
You're leaving
The crackle of pigskin
The dust and the screaming
The yuppies networking
The panic, the vomit
The panic, the vomit
God loves his children, God loves his children, yeah

Tradução

Andróide Paranóico

Dá pra parar com esse barulho?
Eu tô tentando descansar aqui, pô!
Descansar desses cacarejos de galinhas não nascidas na minha cabeça!
Que que é isso!? (Posso ser paranóico mas não andróide)
Quando eu for rei, você será o primeiro no paredão
Com sua opinião que não leva a merda nenhuma
Que que é isso!? (Posso ser paranóico mas não andróide)

A sua ambição te deixa muito feio cara
Guinchando e reclamando seu porquinho da Gucci
Você não se lembra?
Você não se lembra?
Como não lembra do meu nome!
Cortem a sua cabeça!
Cortem a sua cabeça!
Como não lembra do meu nome!?
Eu acho que lembra!

Que chova, que chova
Vamos, que chova em mim
Bem do alto
Bem do alto... do alto

É isso meu senhor
Você está fora

O estalo da pururuca
A poeira e os gritos
A rede dos profissionais emergentes
O pânico, o vômito
O pânico, o vômito
Deus ama seus filhos,
Deus ama seus filhos, ô se ama!

Por Eduardo Pais

The only thing I don't like about it is the web camera that is built into the top edge of the screen.  I know for sure that I'm just being paranoid, but the thought creeps into my mind that since I'm using this computer on the internet at this very moment, someone could be watching me through the camera although I have it disabled, and put a piece of electrical tape over it (just kidding).

That's the thing about technology that gets to me.  I wonder what paranoia was like for schizophrenics in past centuries.  Without technology, what (or who) was watching their every move?  Peeping Toms, peeking in through the windows of their shanties? Without cameras, satellties in space, computers, and telephones, what were people paranoid about?

Studies suggest that genetics, early environment, neurobiology and psychological and social processes are important contributory factors.

A person experiencing schizophrenia may demonstrate symptoms such as disorganised thinking, auditory hallucinations, and delusions.

Diagnosis is based on the self-reported experiences of the person as well as abnormalities in behavior reported by family members, friends or co-workers, followed by secondary signs observed by a psychiatrist, social worker, clinical psychologist or other clinician in a clinical assessment.

Management of symptoms and improving function is thought to be more achievable than a cure. Treatment was revolutionised in the mid 1950s with the development and introduction of chlorpromazine.

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Even as part of the community I don't always have my hands in everything that is happening. I tend to stay away from things that I know will not move this cause forward, that will not get us the answers that we need.
1. Covert Agents will make themselves experts on Gang Stalking. People will be dependent upon them for information instead of looking for other more valid sources of information.

Eg. When I first came online I joined several groups. One group specifically had a leader that many trusted, but over time I realised this person was a what we all called perps at the time. I watched person after person trying to prove that this person was a perp to no avail. When someone would challenge this person the other agents which were most in the group, would start going, no this person is legit. I can tell you I have worked with this person for years and they are legit. Especially this one person who would always pretend to argue with this person, this second person would always come to this first persons rescue.

I watched this scenario repeated, time and time again. Each challenger beat down, and run off the forum. I learnt that it's pointless for me to try to tell others who is a perp and who is not a perp. You have to figure it out for yourself. If you have come this far, only to be deceived by one of them, then I feel even more sorry for you. However I have been deceived by them before, so just keep questioning, and trust your instincts.
2. By being experts especially when claiming to be under attack by the bad guys, they will make legit targets feel sorry for them. They will make targets feel like we are all on the same side, but we are not. This brings targets to these experts for help and information. They see these people as trusted sources. This gives these people opportunities to continue to control targets, and harass targets. This gives these trusted people access to people, to find out their names, where they live, etc.

Eg. When I first started out, like everyone else I went looking for help. I was scared, didn't know WTF was going on, and wanted answers. The first things they tried to do is find out my name and information. "Oh you could be a perp, we don't know who you are, we are not giving you any information till we know more about you, we have had lot's of perps try to infiltrate us", etc. Being a naturally private person, they did not get a lot of details.

When they did think that they knew enough about me, they started to try to use my sensitivity against me. I was confused, because I was like what the heck? How could they all be doing this, just like offline. Cause online you expect to be in the presence of friends right? Wrong, if you can't find people to trust offline, be just as cautious online.

The thing that accidentally clued me in, was one day this perp was having a little too much fun. I didn't think of him as  perp at the time, but he said something to the effect of, "wouldn't it be funny if you were in a forum full of perps and didn't know it"? Something about that really stayed with me, and I sat back then and just observed, pretty soon after some time I began to see that he might not have been that far off, or joking. After that I started to learn. It was shortly after that, that I started to look for other answers.

The other problem with these groups is anytime someone started to suggest something that sounded reasonable, it would be shot down and only what this leader said would have validity, it went back and forth like that for some time, and I learnt.
3. These agents what they will do is use legit victims to promote other perps. Eg. A legit target thinks they have found a trusted source, they will promote that source and then get other legit targets to trust the agent and therefore giving out personal information to these people.

Eg. When I first became a target, I use to really reference the David Lawson book, and at first I was on forums going well David Lawson in his book... says this, or says that..., but I had not done the research, I just trusted what these leaders had said, because I knew nothing about disinfo agents, and all these stupid games they play. I learnt in time.

4. Control of information. This is a biggie. Some of the experts in the targeted individual community can restrict what is said. I remember when people would bring up legit topics and it was something that they did not want said, well they would suppress a topic, sometimes legit observations that other targets had made.

Also many of these agents or citizen informants you see them on YouTube, doing their best to make targets look insane, paranoid, or by making up the worst stories.

When I was on some of these sites or forums, you just knew some of the things being said didn't sound right, but you just thought, they can't all be perps can they? Maybe not all, but too many are, and it just brings down legit targets.

Even on normal forums, what they do is they will have specific people who's only job it is to make the topic sound paranoid or crazy, or get legit topics banned, threads closed, or removed. Anything to make sure the correct information does not get out.

Eg. You have Covert sources on these forums going, no the government is not involved, why would the government stalk people, this is vigilante groups, I know this for a fact, cause I know who set me up for the stalking. Don't get me wrong, you have some real targets who might believe they know who did it and from whence it came, but you also have these people spreading what sounds like just enough correct information to make the disinfo sound truthful.

5. The truth factor. Yes this is where they will spread 95% truth and then 5% disinfo, but it's that 5% that will really screw you up. Most people will believe everything said, because you are getting truth, truth, truth, truth, truth, disinfo, truth, truth, truth. I talked about this when I saw a David Icke's video and I said that I believed he was right about 95% of the things he had said, but I believed he was 5% telling a myth with this references to how many messiahs had existed before.

Even without that example, there is the David Lawson book, came out the same year as 9/11. Had all the information needed to sound legit, but he comes to the conclusion that it's foreign terrorists and "anti-government" groups, who are responsible for the organised stalking? Really David? You were like a detective for 12 years, you travelled with these people for like how many years? Yet in my opinion he does not draw the right conclusion. Why is that?

Come on people think. What do you think the purpose of the book was? I have said it before and I will say it again. Either he is an agent, or he is the worst detective ever.

I believe the book is disinfo, using the 95% to 5% rule. Thanks to that book however, how many are still searching for terrorist or right wing groups as the source of their stalking? Remember not everyone has access to online groups. So many will get the book, look in the wrong place, and get themselves put in a mental hospital talking about terrorist stalking them, which I think was the purpose.
6. Yes another problem. By making themselves experts, targets get lazy. We trust them to speak for us. Depending on them to speak for us silences us, and determines the way our cause will move forward, or more importantly will not. Their goal is to keep the truth from us, and from the general public for as long as possible. We also then parrot their disinfo, so when we go to forums and talk about terrorist stalking us or whatever the lie is, then we look insane.

I keep encouraging targets, to find the leader within. Do your own research. If you are not good at research, just think. Does the information they are giving me match what I am seeing offline? Eg. The lie that this was extremist groups doing this, didn't wash. My friends and family were involved, they may be many things, but they are not members of extremist groups. Nore were they likely to be. What they were telling me in these forums, and what I did see, when I finally went outside again did not correspond. So I researched, came up with a hypothesis, when it didn't fully fit, I reworked it, tested it again, and then eventually the evidence matched what I was actually seeing. The pieces of the puzzle started to come together.

If the information is correct, I believed the corresponding proof would come. I think in the last week or two, a wealth of information has been found in my opinion to match what I was saying. I remember when I presented these theories on the forums, I was totally felt shot down and devalued, and I politely just left. It was not giving me the correct answers and I knew it. I more importantly knew that things were not what they seemed. For me it was the right thing to do. I can work well on my own, and if I had stayed in forums, or let others confuse me, I would not have been able to get to the correct information as quickly as I did. Trust your instincts if you have any.

7. By making them experts and our voices, they take away our power, and they move the movement forward the way they want it to go. Also if a target is about to reveal the truth, or come out with information, they will have someone on their side come out with it first, or come out with the information in greater detail. When they can no longer suppress the truth, they will tell the truth, but with their spin, and they will try to make sure that one of their people on their side is running the show.

They never just have one person. They always have several, and they will in subtle ways back each other up. I have said it before and I will say it again. I think out of let's say 10 sites, you will find one or two that are legit, and the rest will be run by their people. That is my personal opinion, but I have my reasons for feeling this way.

They won't all say the same thing, they will be working different angles so you will be like, well these people are doing something different, so you might feel that they are legit, but they still might not be.

8. Being an expert in some ways can be lucrative. Again the David Lawson book was the only thing the community had for some time. A lot of these people know how to work it with books, and DVD, etc. They will know how to network and how to organise better then most targets. Also they will have an agenda, if the truth is going to be disseminated on mass scale, it will be via their channels and not usually ours.

9. The agents I assume have a vested interest in making sure that the truth does not come to light. They do pose as leaders, cause we trust them to know more about the cause than we do. I mean many of them have been here before. Many of them knew about things like mind control, electronic harassment, etc.

When I came online, I looked to others, cause I didn't know what was going on, and it was easy to truth these people. I was lucky, or maybe I don't know, but I didn't fall into some of the traps that I could of. Mostly I just wanted the truth about what was going on. It's taken up so much of my time.

10. As mentioned before, they will play off of each other. Eg. They will pretend to be on separate sides, then they will both be agents. I have seen this play a dozen times. It's confusing, cause then you are all like, ok I know this person is a perp, so the other person must be legit, not so. They can both perps.
If you are willing to see the truth, then ya it's pretty shocking that most in the community are not what they seem. Not by a long shot. On these forums, I mean normal forums, there are people there to push down our threads when we have legit conversations about these topics. In other cases to get threads closed. In other cases to make the topic sound crazy, and to just pretend to be targets, and make other targets disbelieve the truth.

When I tell you that we are up against a system, I am not joking. Till you see, feel and experience it for yourself, you will find it hard to believe. However for your own sakes, try to see it for what it is, if you are not able to do this, then at least make sure what they are telling you matches up. Do a little bit of searching yourself.