P.S scuze pt poza k  cam nasoala.

I'll admit that I had a lot of plans today. But couldn't bring myself to it. Some of the plans were canceled because I'm not brave enough. Some because it's far too late, timing is very important but I stayed out too late, so in a way, it was good. And the truth is, I think it's been the best birthday I've ever had, minus the rude awakening and drama in the wee early hours of my birthday.

Also, happy birthday to the late Aleister Crowley.

There were some things I wanted to reveal tonight but yeah, I think it can wait. Or be revealed in different ways later on. And maybe if I had come home before midnight, things would be a lot different right now, like I wouldn't be here right now, writing.

And I'm glad for the people I got to spend it with.

"The last time you came through, oh darling, I know what you're going through." - Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet by Fall Out Boy.

jan ali o, toki! mi weka awen e pali pi tomo sona. ona li ike li pona ala tawa mi. mi sitelen lon lipu toki sin tan ni.

Hello, everybody! I am avoiding my schoolwork. It's bad and I don't like it. I'm writing in my new blog because of this.

mi pali e seme? mi kama sona e toki pona. mi pona mute ala e ona. taso mi kama pona. sina sona ala e ni la sina wile kama sona. ona li toki lili: ona li jo e nanpa lili taso pi nimi. sina sona e toki pona la pona e pakala mi.

What have I been doing? I've been learning Toki Pona. I'm not very good at it, but I'm getting better. If you don't understand this, you should learn. It's quite simple: it only has a small amount of words. If you understand Toki Pona, correct my mistakes.

mi lape lon tomo pi jan pona mi. mi mute toki mute: ni li pona tawa mi. tenpo suli pini tan mi mute pona mute. mi olin mute e jan pona mi. mi pilin pona tan mi pali e ni.

I slept at my friend's house. We talked a lot: I enjoyed it. It's been a long time since we talked much. I love my friends a lot. I'm glad we did this.

tenpo ni la ni li mute pona. mi pilin ni: toki pona li pona ala tawa sina mute. taso sina mute wile kama sona e ona!

That's enough for now. I think that Toki Pona does not interest you all, but you should go learn it!

Når vi kom frem dit fikk vi det vanlige bordet vårt og bestemte oss for at idag var vi så sultne på pizza. det ble nr 30. Heavy heaven. Den er kjempe god! Anbefales! hihi... Etter å ha kost oss med pizza og nesten blitt stappmette måtte vi jo ha en Oreodream. Det deiligste på jord! Jeg lover dere. Og Saha, du som lurte på skolen heromdagen hva jeg syns var best av sjokolade og sex. Jeg tror jeg har tenkt ferdig. Må nesten si sjokolade altså! Seriøst! Noen andre som er uenige? Saha, hva syns egentlig du? hehe..

Vi dro hjem til Celine en tur etter å ha vært på peppes før mamma kom å hentet meg. Takk for at du kjører og henter meg hele tiden mamma;) hehe

Og hvis du nå lurer på overskriften ang Sauing, så er det sånn at det er ganske så internt. Men Celine skjønner det. Og det gjør dagen min til en herlig og lattermild dag;)

-Natta! Drøm søte drømmer!

-love mk

im pretty much done with nashvegas - we geminis get bored easily (thats why we like psycho-schizo gals) and i think nashville has been super awesome to me. ive stayed with some of the awesomest people ive ever met in my life over here. id like to thank kyle, randall, martha, peter, sunny, hilldo and jamie for being such a great friend, supporter and mentor while im here.. *this is becoming too good-bye-ish for me

anyhow, i think im getting a new phone and my goal is to call my mom more more more more and more. my baby sister will be taking her PMR exam in a few weeks and i am wishing her all the best, love, luck and peace to her - yes, i know.. ive been soft and missing home. at first i try not to think about home too much so i wont be homesick. now i am homesick and i guess there are more then one way to cure this sickness. besides the obvious solution of going home, i think i can develop myself into being creative and productive by traveling and promoting my culture as anak melayu and budak koleq while i slowly head home in my own way.

i heard somewhere - home is where you make it. i disagree and i think, home is where its at.

~harayz~

ps: where art thou lindsay silvera?

All four of us went out for lunch today at this Chinese buffet place. I was craving the taste of white fluffy rice and really salty foods. It was so good. Then we went to Sams Club. It's Emma's turn to bring snacks to preschool this Friday and there are 17 kids in her class. For some stupid reason, they don't just give kids water. They give them juice and you have to provide cups or send juice boxes. So I bought a 36 pack at Sams for about 9 bucks. I got a big bag of pretzels and a big bag of raisins (salty & sweet!) and now I don't have to worry about it at the last minute now. I'm ready!

Tomorrow afternoon my friend Jaimie is coming over to help me create a magical playroom out of my basement. This ought to be good. We originally wanted to install a drop ceiling down there ourselves but we're not doing that now. We just don't have the funds for it. I'm just going to clean up and move crap around so we can bring the outdoor toys indoors for the winter and the kids can ride around down there.

I love my friend Jaimie. She's someone Billy and I have a lot of history with. I met her when I was about 16 and she's known my husband since she herself was 14 years old. She's like a sister to us.

Well, no one napped here this afternoon but we all need one. I'm not even a little bit hungry after that Chinese lunch. I think that MSG is some powerful stuff. I'm incredibly thirsty and insanely tired.

Image by AIBakker via Flickr

I'm going to have to wrap up various bits and bobs tomorrow. One thing I'll be doing for the first time is sending myself an email listing all the food stuff that is here in the house. The reason being that whenever I come here, I drive from the airport past Lidl (...) and pick up shopping for the first evening/first few days. Only that I never know what is actually in the house, so I end up buying stuff that I don't need and that eventually goes off.

E.g. this time round, I had to eat rice for a week or so and had to use 2-3 tins of tomatoes in my cooking, as the expiry date is 31/12/08! Having grown up with relatively little money i.e. nothing to waste, I don't throw food and might even have a psychological problem with wasting stuff :P

Actually it's not a 'psychological problem' at all - the people I'm friends with here (my neighbour I. and her family) are just like me, and so is my family. Might even be a cultural thing. Plus, I get a kick out of being frugal (and look where it got me hehe so I must be doing something right!). It's a great skill to have :)

Either way, tomorrow I shall record whatever is left over in an email to myself. It's not that much (I wouldn't spend hours cataloguing every single item if I had cupboards full of stuff). But things like olive oil I'm very low on, so that will have to be bought on the way from the airport to the house via Lidl next time (i.e. next May). It's just going to be a useful little list and will simply make things easier next time round.

Tomorrow night I'm meeting with my friend P. - I think I've mentioned it before. On Tue I'm already leaving - for some reason I thought I had plenty of days ahead, and I wish I did :|

So, to provide some authority to those I read constantly, I thought I would give a shout out to my favorite bloggers!

• Lori Brown
• The Power of Negative Blogging
• The Bloggess
• Little Miss Obsessive
• The Hebert Family
• Amy
• Tiff Crochets
• Happy Hour Sue
• Steve the Sneeze

I will continue to update as I remember more :-D

Top secret future project for 2009 is in the pipework and at the moment I cannot reveal ANYTHING but soon my lovelies, soon all will be revealed so check back soon to find out whats afoot.

During the discussion, I managed to go out to talk to Bee Sim, talk to my other housemates about my hair, feel hungry because I hadn't eaten dinner, talked to my mum on the phone and had a pretty long phone conversation with Eddy S (I'm only so specific because I know more than one Edward) and I'm still here. *sighs*.

I've been commanded (his version of a suggestion) to blog about what we talked about today. But since I don't like repeating myself (that often and that soon), I'll blog about something else related to that today.

Yes, I'll blog about you, big (and I mean big, but not in a very nice way =P) doofus.

I've known Edward for... a pretty long time. Long enough to still need to call him Edward and not Eddy. It's too habitual. I've called him Edward since I've known him. Thing about Penang is that... it's so small. It makes all of us connected, one way or another. Edward and I are connected through his aunt and my mum who are really good friends who were really good friends from high school. So when we were little, we used to play together.

My earliest memory of the nuisance is playing 'family' with a whole bunch of other kids in some warped universe where time travels backwards.

He was the 'grandfather' - equipped with glasses hanging on the tip of his nose, the imaginary walking stick and a hunch the size of Everest on his back,

-_-"

And let me not forget torturous piano classes under Ms. Tan (Lyn and Sheryn can back me up and tell you that I'm not exaggerating about the torture, but that's a story for another day). We were forced to play this piano duet with each other (I barely really knew him at that time. I have an old picture of us playing the piano together in a small recital at our ex piano teacher's place) and me really disliking him (note, Mr. Saw that I say dislike and not hate as you so often like to exaggerate =P) because my lousy piano skills were constantly compared and contrasted to his accomplished hand (yes, I was already a kiasu little thing at that time).

As most of you know, there are few childhood playmates you spend every single day, week, month of your life with. Edward was definitely not one of those and many, many years passed before we crossed paths again. I was in... Form3 at that time when I found out that he was (very) distantly related to one of my classmates whom I used to hang out with back in the good ol' MGS days.

I told you Penang's a tiny place!

We've shared a rather ... unique (for lack of a better term) relationship since then. Of course, in our mums' ideal world we'd be attached at the hip by now. But we're pretty far from that. For those who noticed in my Facebook profile a few weeks earlier that I was "Married" to a certain "Edward Providence Saw", no, it was some other alien from a completely different dimension and even then, he forced my index finger to click accept! But we've had a divorce since he cheated on me so don't sweat it, you won't be seeing any mini half-breeds running around like, EVER. And again, I digress.

I suppose he's one of the few really good friends that I can not talk to or not communicate with for months and still when we meet, it's like no time has passed. In that sense, he's a male version of Lay Bee too me (O_o).

We share this weird relationship where I can pretty much tell which girl he's into at the moment or with at the moment just by looking at photos (that are innocent, mind you). Yes, he has a type. Penang is so small that he's dated three people I know from my school who were in my graduating year - two of which I grew up with and one of which (not necessarily the third, unmentioned one, mind you) I loathed with every fibre of my being. Maybe we just run in the same circles, who knows. But, yes, Penang is pretty small when you look at it that way.

The thing about Edward. He's a pretty great guy. He's also a pretty emo guy who likes to take the weight of his world on his shoulders even though it's really not his job and thus, he does like saving people. Which is why I suspect he almost always falls for the damsel in distress. It's also why he's surrounded by people who try (and usually succeed) to take advantage of it.

But, my dear, we're only human, yeah? And, yes, sometimes we do like to be needed. It makes us secure in the fact that we play an important role in someone else's life. So yes, go on and be a hero if you must and do what makes you happy, even if it is pleasing everyone else but yourself. Despite all that, sometimes, even heroes need some saving. What's the point in sacrificing everything about yourself to save someone else when sooner or later, there's not going to be anything left of you for yourself, much less to sacrifice.

What I'm trying to say is you really don't have to go round being everyone's knight in shining armour. Just because you carefully choose who to give your help to does not make you any less of a knight. Or a hero. Or a vigilante. Whichever you want to call it.

For those who truly love you, love you for who you truly are - regardless.

After all, I love you even though you can be oh-so-cocky, conceited and an annoying pain in the ass =P

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
- Five for Fighting

Så fikk jeg skaffet meg sjåfør til byen. Hadde jo lovt folka å dra på hawk. Så når jeg kom frem hadde jeg det kjempe kos. Møtte verdens søteste og flere. Svenni var snill og kjørte meg og søteste hjem. Søteste sov hos meg. Er så kos å våkne opp i armkroken hans. Søtt! Så ble det kaffe og eggerøre til frokost mens vi tittet på Paris Hilton, My New BFF! Jeg har fått enda en person hekta på det! yeah! hehe.. Er ikke bare meg som henger meg opp i reality serier som er tåpelige! hehe...

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-love mk

That is an inspiration to me. I can Identify with traveling a rough road while growing up. I made a lot of wrong turns and poor choices. God intervened in my life in 1977 when He directed me to AA where I got sober and began to change my life radically. Five years into my sobriety, He intervened again when He opened my eyes to see my need for a Savior. My life has never been the same since I asked Jesus to be my Lord.

Meeting and sharing with this interesting man inspires me to ask myself;

1. Why am I so blessed to be living the clean and sober life that I have today?
2. Do I realize how important it is to be a positive example for the next generation to look to?
3. Am I living in such a way that I would be comfortable with a young person trying to emulate my behavior?

More than anything, I want to bring glory to my God. Next, I want to help another person who is going through similar struggles that I have been through. My life has been miraculously diverted from certain disaster.

"I waited patiently for the Lord; and He inclined to me and heard my cry. He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay. He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and will put their trust in the Lord." Psalm 40:1-3