Do you have a friend that will stick by you no matter what situation.  No matter how badly you neglect them, they are always there waiting for the moment that you need them.  Most people don't have this.  I am not sure that I know a person who would stick by me through everything....I have close friends, but honestly I am not willing to test my friendships that far.

On the other hand, I have Fairfax.  Fairfax has been my best friend for 8+ years.  Before him, I had Larry - but he is now waiting to be loved by someone else.  In case you are wondering, Larry and Fairfax are classical guitars.  Both loved equally, both have been neglected and abused.  Both have been my greatest tools for expression. Both are made of spruce. This is where the similarities end.

Larry was a very long term companion.  One that saw me to the end of university.  Larry was a workhorse, and when the next generation decides to pick up the guitar- he is going to be a wonderful instrument.  I can't wait for the day, that someone picks him up, and starts strumming away.

Fairfax, like his name is a bit more delicate.  He is a one of a kind.  A custom built instrument.  One that sings just for me.  He is always trying to make me sound sophisticated and just slightly pretentious.  Neither of those qualities come naturally to me - but he sure does try hard to get me to change. One of these days I may just have to listen to him.

In case you are wondering why they are named Fairfax and Larry....sorry I am not going to tell you, but if you guess correctly, I'll let you know if you are right.

Me, Elena & Valerie Elena's mom at the pumpkin patch just out of Sidney, here in Victoria. Just writing this blog post before our thanksgiving dinner.

Raissa

Mi s-a spus, si am fost rugata de catre prietena mea cea mai buna sa imi spun parerea despre ea. Banuiesc ca ar trebui sa surprind o mare parte din personalitatea ei ceea ce e un pic cam complicat dar o sa ma straduiesc. Apropo de lucruri complicate, ea e cea mai complicate persoana pe care am cunoscut-o vreodata. Nici eu nu am inteles in decursul a 4 sau 3 ani de cand suntem prietene, cum reuseste sa isi faca viata atat de grea. Eh sa zicem ca o ajut si eu din cand in cand amintitndu-i de o gramada de cantece de la formatia Fara Zahar.

Cum spuneam....ea este o persoana foarte importanta pentru mine este prietena si dusmanca mea in acelasi timp. Stiu ca pare ciudat ce spun numai ca asa este, ne uram reciproc mai ales ca de ceva timp imi face viata amara cu tot felul de obsesii(stelute,patratele etc),imi poarta ghinion MEREU si ma critica intr-una, de parca ar fi dracu in persoana (ei…parca). Chiar a facut cuvantul ,,ar fi culmea” sa faca sa se indeplineasca o gramada de lucruri, ceea ce m-a adus intr-o gramada de belele, care au socat-o si pe ea, si pentru asta mi-a zis ,,te urasc” in fiecare minut timp de 2 saptamani. Intr-o zi eram in camera mea si s-a apucat sa faca un cocktail cu cerneala, acetona, sapun,pasta de dinti, ulei si cirese (am facut si poza la experiment). De atunci traiesc cu sentimentul ca intr-o zi o sa imi arunce casa in aer (si chiar i-am zis-o). Vedeti? Ne uram.

Numai ca fara ea viata mea ar fi foarteee plictisitoare. De pilda: nu as mai avea cu cine sa ma cert, cu cine sa ma impac cu cine sa rad, cui sa ii spun ,,te urasc” , cui sa ii impartasesc toate secretele, cu cine sa imi bat joc de toti prostii si nu ar avea cine sa ma ajute sa nu devin o persoana stresanta. Cu ea am facut o gramada de chestii nebunesti: am aruncat tortul pe geam,am mers pe strada in zig-zag am ametit de milioane de ori dandu-ma in leagan, ne-am imbatat cu red-bull si am ras de m-am sufocat. Vedeti cat ne iubim?

Pe langa toate lucrurile despre care am vorbit trebuie sa admit ca are o gramada de calitati. Adica ce copil la varsta ei poate inventa teoreme? Sau cine are atata inspiratie sa scrie o gramada de pagini pe blog fara sa ii sece inspiratia? Cu alte cuvinte este un mic geniu si sunt mandra de ea.

Ah…si uraste persoanele ce copie stilul vestimentar al altora si pe cel moral, sau pur si simplu persoanele care se dau altceva decat sunt doar pentru ca asa e la moda.

Oricum,pentru mine ea este modelul de prietena ideala de la care am ce invata si de care ma pot mandri.

LIL MAN!

You cried like young buck when he called 50cent, the first night that I brought you home. Your ribs were showing, and you had as much hair as all the the women put together in the african hair braiding spots in Harlem, but your blue eyes gleamed, and I was subdued. I knew that even if you cried every night for the next twenty years and I got no slept ever, that we'd still be best friends. Besides, your ass was non refundable and half a semester's tuition at qc. lol j/k I even thought about dropping you off at susans or at d bo and karinas, but I wouldnt be able to take not seeing you for days. You were so scared you slept in your roomy purple litter box the first night, crying out constantly and quite consistently as I recall for your mom or your twenty brothers and sisters, but it was I who answered your call instead. The next night, you slept right on top of my head, and we've been inseparble since. :)

You've chewed wires, teamed upwith soleil to destroy my life, ambushed attacked me from behind, and eaten my food. There have been times when I wanted to duck tape your ass to wall, jus so you wouldn't move and stop doing evil! But there have also been times, when your body heat kept me warm when there was no heat in the house. You love unconditionally and have way more fun with a straw wrapping than I even imagined possible lol. You remind me why I love the simple things in life. I've watch you grow, and I still watch you sleep sometimes. Some (i.e kevin, your ass is on blast ni^^a) say you're spoiled rotten, but I'd have to object and say that your just rather commfortable and priveledged :) You've been friend, roomate, and companion. If you ever escape and leave me, Ill kill you! But if you never do, we'll have many more memories to add to the lifetime of them that we already have.  Enjoy the tastety salmon treats I've left on the table for you. BBF! <3<3<3<3<3<3

but don’t let it frighten you!!

- Hunter S Thompson

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Om du inte tror - du kan fråga barnflickan!!!"

i'm extremely bored. like so super bored, i actually turned to blogging to relieve my boredom. which isn't anything new for me. cause i blog all the time, when i'm bored or when i'm not. that's not the point. i really just want to ramble on about everything. make this post way to long, and just vent.
                                                          vent.
haven't done that in a while. well, i have. but not about everything. i think it's time i just sit back, relax, and spend the next hour or more just typing my heart away. sound good? great.

let's start with him. gary.
you know allie likes him. and she's liked him for a few weeks now. and i told her that i like him, because i know she won't mind. and actually, we were just talking about him and she figured it out. and usually, i don't like guys my friends like. it usually just ends up in a fight [a pointless fight] and we end up both hating the guy and not caring about him at all. i don't want that to happen. gary's a great guy. and if me and allie even start to bicker about him, i will put aside my feelings and just be his friend. and he is a great friend. a fantastic friend. he's very nice. he's very funny. he's very gorgeous.
but that's not the point of what i'm trying to say now. i really do like gary. and usually when i barely know guys, i say i like them but i don't. but i think this is different. i get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about seeing him in the hallway. when we talk, i can't think of what to say, but it just comes to me. he's like the perfect fellow i have never been able to find. but i have found a few perfect ones. like nick [my friend.] and like ben, who wasn't perfect at first, but he's pretty perfect now. but gary. man, he's something different. i would love to just sit down with him, maybe lay on a blanket in a very grassy area, and just talk. just me and him. that would be nice. maybe one day we'll be close enough to do that with each other. i think that would be magical.

now time for friends.
you will not understand this blog, until you get what's up with me and my friends. and i would have mentioned this before, but it didn't occur to me until now.
we are possibly the most fucked up children in our school. no. we're not. but we're crazy.
we're random.
we're crazy.
we're stupid [well. we do stupid stuff]
we don't care what people think about us.
we're fucking insane.
we try to fly.
we don't like half of everyone in our school.
we trash talk people.
we're happy with a 66 average [cause it's passing.]
we perverted.
most of us don't have a dad [or we have a step-dad]
we're not rich.
we shop at hottopic.
we make fun of jocks/cheerleaders.
we don't like sluts.
we mess around with each other a lot.
we listen to music other people find horrible.
and the list goes on.
much farther on.
that's only the beginning of what i can talk about.
i love my friends. they keep me sane. even though, none of us are sane. or close to it. but that's okay. alright. i kind of forgot where i was going with that. bahaha. well know you know me and my friends alittle more.

what's next?
oh. it's fall!
it's actually been fall for some time now. cause now it's october. which is my one of my favorite months. it's just so pretty when the leaves start falling and everything turns yellow and orange. and it's kind of cold, but not freezing, though it has been freezing in the morning the past couple of weeks.
i went on a brief walk today, while waiting for my little sister's bus to come, and i realized everything is freaking red and pink and orange and yellow and gorgeous. i never really look down our road. and on saturday, when me and catie went on our walk the other day i didn't notice it. but today i did. and i was going to take some pictures, but i didn't have my camera with me. because like i said, i didn't realize how pretty it was. so i didn't think of grabbing my camera before going down. cause i fancy taking landscape pictures. <3

hm. moving on.
gr. i can't even think of anything else to say. but i only have around 780 words. but it seems my word count is not moving very rapidly. so let's let it catch up and then i'll tell you. i mean right now it says 807. which is higher then it was before. it's moving again now. hm. blah. what else can i talk about? this is why i need you guys to tell me what to write about. oh. i was going to vent. shit. i don't actually want to anymore. like i was all psyched to go and just spill everything to you guys, but i've lost all interest in that. eh, whatever. i'll get around to it some other time.
i really need to stop this thing now, on behalf of my hands starting to cramp and me running out of words. is that okay? wow. i just asked if i can stop typing. which, by the time you read this, will be to late. and, i really don't care if you want me to keep going or not. my hand is like blahh. so i need to stop. or i might eff up my wrist even more then it already is. mmkay?
haha. i just said mmkay. lame. okay. now i really should go. i have reached my goal of over 1000 words. mhm. go me!
haha. 1000 words isn't really all that much. but that's okay. ah shit. i actually only have 993 words. well now i have over 1000. actually i have over 1010.
so now i have to go.
maybe. my hand doesn't really hurt all that much anymore. but i really don't have anything to say. so maybe i should just go.

oh. by the way, you should check out the page called names. cause. it's pretty useful when ready about people. it's got every one's name and my relationship with them. mhm.
okay. goodbye for now.

-your monster.

Here's why Steve thinks I should wear the outfit.... Quote from Steve "that's how they show off dudes who lost it all in the stock market"
"hahahahahhaha"
He was talking about me!
What do you think about this halloween costume?
Please leave your comments in this post.

Becky and I have been talking recently, via email, about our siblings.  Bird is a senior in high school this year, and I commented to Becky about how old and unaccomplished I feel.  I remember getting Racheal ready to go to kindergarten in the mornings; what is she doing getting ready to graduate?  And what am I doing, still in college?

This was Becky's response to me:

And the truth is, with some past and current events that happened to me, I was really wondering. I'm 16 and a half, rights? And sometimes I can be a "people" person. I know a lot of people, and a lot of people simply know me. Some times it's even gets plain weird. But never the less I sometimes wonder, if in all this mess I have any real friends?

So friends. Who are those mystery people? The ones that you see daily, go to school with, talk with and hang out with? Over the past few years I've discovered that some friends, some real friends, and best friends, come from the most unusual and unexpected places. Take for example two of my best friends. Both I met online, in forums, with one of them, I ended up being in the same class with, with the other, she lives far away, but she still is my best friend I reveal all the secrets too. 

The bad part is, that you discover who truely is your friend in the worst situations, when they are the only ones who stand by you, help you, cheer you up, and etc. So how far does your friendship with your friends stand? How far do you think they will go for you? Let me ask a diffrent question. Have you ever thought if they will care when you're gone? Well lately I'v discovered the answer to that question. No. 

Last week, I'v been in a hospital, it was nothing serious really, but I'v three days of school. Number of calls? Four. Four calls from my best friends. Three people. Three people. Some of them are not even from my school. Na, it was a lot of fun to get calls and then say "Um... I'm in the hospital" to hear the dead silence on the other line and then "What? But I thought I saw you in school today" and then "Oh well.. Feel better.." and then they hang up. And you don't really hear from them again.

Sounds lousy, but it just proves how some friends are better then others, how some people wear masks, pretend to be nice, pretend to be your bests friend in the whole world and then ditch you in the worst moment of all. 

Never the less the last topic I wanted to talk about, love and love and friends.
Just a thought passing my mind, do people our age, and I mean mine, 16, really do fall in love? Or are those just stupid simple crushes, bound to pass with time, bound to disappear between it's pages. 

Some time ago, I tolled, a friend that was madly in love with someone, that I like a person. Three days later, she tolled me she was madly in love suddenly, with that person too. The question is... How can you be in love with a person you don't even know? I mean... Never spoken a single word with, not hello, not good bye, not anything. More over, a person that as facts stated, doesn't even know that you exist. How can you be in love with something that you think you saw. And sitting next to the computer screen, while being asked to tell all I know about him, saying the most trivial matters, and wondering, if she even knows anything about him, anything, except his name.

Is this love? The wonderful feeling everyone's talking about? And more over, do friendships stand while both people have feelings for a certain person? Or when of those people thinks the other is somehow stupid?

I guess not.

And so, I'm going to ruin some perfect Oreo cookies now, with some toothpaste. And then probably give them to the public to enjoy... Hmmm...

Mischief Managed.

We are getting new windows!  I am very excited.  Our current windows are old and drafty and in the winter we have a hard time keeping our house at an even temperature.  It seems like if the heat isnt running its freezing in there.  So we are getting new energy efficient windows in like two weeks after they are made.  Hopefully our gas bill will drop a bit this winter. 

My best turned me on to a wonderful new wine.  Its made in the northern part of Michigan's lower peninsula in Traverse City.  Its a sweet red.  And its delicious slightly chilled.  Seems weird for a red to be chilled but believe me its wonderful.  I had to have a glass last night just because its that good... I couldn't wait.

Baby Girl is almost one.  She will be at the end of the month so I am trying to plan her party right now.  I know that she wont remember a thing, but family members get all excited over first birthday parties and want to take a million pictures.  And Im excited myself.  I cannot believe that she is already so big.  Where did the time go?  And I have to admit, that I love throwing parties in general so its just one more excuse :-)

McCain dropped his campaign in Michigan, deeming it a "loss".  Apparently we were hit too hard in the economic crisis (which we have been for quite some time) and his numbers in the polls started to drop dramatically.  He will stop running his TV ads and cancelled his scheduled visits to the state.  I almost see this as a mini victory.  I said to myself: "yes!  My state is not yours! "  And that makes me happy.  Hopefully everyone shows up to vote on the 4th and lets Michigan be an Obama state.  Michigan is usually a swing state but the past few elections have went to the blue side mostly because of the economy and the fact that jobs are not stable in the Big 3 auto market.  Its a shame though.

Does anyone have any insight on Obama's stance on Unions?  Ive tried to research it, but it all seems to be hear-say and speculation and not fact.  I'd like some good solid information on that.  Thanks for your help.

I'd really like a glass of warm apple cider right now with a fresh old fashioned doughnut.  Maybe I can talk D into going to the cider mill or apple orchard this weekend.  :-)

How much do you love your dog? Enough to get a sweater made out of all the hair it sheds?  A photographer by the name of Erwan Fichou documents this unusual trend.  Apparently there's a book about how to knit with your dog's hair. This just seems to be crossing some sort of line.

Bad news first (it's the only way to go).  I'd never had a boyfriend in high school, which was, you know, whatever.  I'm here not two weeks and Sven asks me out.  What have I got to lose, right?  So I say yes.  But even from the beginning I had my doubts.  This past week/weekend I did some serious thinking.  I realized that I was only really dating him to be dating someone.  Our relationship was...weird.  In fact, I'm pretty sure he was afraid of me or something.  Which is kind of sad; I mean, I know my sarcastic nature can be a bit intimidating, but honestly, he's about 5 times stronger than me.  His roommate, A, who coached him through the whole asking out process, told me when Sven asked me out, on-line mind you, that Sven was afraid of me.  At the time I thought he merely meant he was afraid of asking me out, but hey maybe not.  But we really didn't have anything in common; he's a computer science major and I'm a theatre nerd.  The only thing we really had in common was watching C.S.I. in K & J's room and a love of Ireland.  That, and he had some mannerisms that bothered me.  But he took it a lot better than I thought he would....like a lot better.  I basically told him I wasn't ready for our relationship and it wasn't working for me.  All he had to say was "ok".  And not even a sad ok, an upbeat, happy sounding ok.  Jeez, glad I meant so much to you Sven.  But enough about him.

I joined a knitting club today.  Or rather, we hope to become a club, we aren't officially a club yet.  We're actually a club for knitters and crocheters, but we call ourselves the Knit Wits.  I also got to talk to one of my best friends ever, Em, who I haven't spoken with in over a month and a half!!  It was great to hear your voice again, I miss you tons!

And, of course, the big news of the weekend is one of my floor-mates got engaged.  She's a senior and her boyfriend is in the navy.  She doesn't get to see him for two years and this weekend he drove all the way from Rhode Island to propose.  Everybody all together now, AWWWWWWW!!!!!

It was also K & Car's two year anniversary!!  I love those two.  I know they don't read this, yet at least, but Happy Anniversary you two!!

Oh!  And my cousins ran in the Twin Cities Marathon this weekend!  They and a whole bunch of relatives drove up and stayed in my house.  I was a little sad I couldn't be there to see them all, but I'm pretty sure the house would have exploded, what with the eight of them, my parents and two sisters, my dog, and my cat already there.  But fall break's in two weeks!!  Woohoo!!  We only get two weeks, lamesauce, but it's better than nothing.  Well, I think that's about it for now.  Hope you all had a fantastic weekend!  Toodles!